Grace May Nelson: Blog

Much Of The Same.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 13:36:21 -0600

Just returned from a weekend at Abbies. Chemo round 3 was on thursday and, as usual, hit her hard. Constantly retching and vomiting - jesus. Broken sleep added to the mix. No contact with work. Little contact with friends. (risk of infection) No life and mood very low... Abbie - you are so much more stronger than me.

Not Walking But Running.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 15:47:52 -0600

Noticed I am running and rarely walking. Not far and not for too long. I become slightly breathless and stop. I have even worked up a sweat. Feeling better for it ? Er..

WE Are To Blame.

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:02:33 -0600

Another possible 'hate crime' in the press and another death. Reports of 'packs of yobs' roaming our estates and 'unsafe' streets. 'More Police', comes the call. 'Spy on your neighbours', some London councils have already called. All this happens because WE allow it. WE dont get involved anymore. WE dont talk to our neighbours. WE dont look out for each other anymore. WE dont unite and fight back. Dont - Wont. WE have no one to blame but ourselves.

Stent Anniversary.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 16:34:57 -0600

Abbie and I spent the weekend lounging on the couch watching TV. The weather was as bad as she was feeling. Why are carers always more difficult to care for ? Luckily, I remember being as bad - it wasnt that long ago. Today is the anniversary of the stents being inserted. And the second heart attack. A piece of piss compared to the first. Stents are inserted through the main artery in the groin. The way to a mans heart... Thank you ALL.

Chemo - Round Two.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 22:06:21 -0500

Abbie has had her second lot of chemotherapy. She sounded tired and depressed on the phone. The anticipation of the nausea overshadows all. For the next few days her white blood cell count falls dangerously low. Risk of infection is high. Five more months of this ! Jesus.

Where To Shit In Hospitals ?

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 12:50:25 -0500

Whilst visiting a friend in hospital, I noticed a commode by a bed.
The nurse was pulling the screen across to give the elderly woman privacy.

The ward had 3 other beds - all female patients.
4 metres across the room a door led to the 'Patient's Toilets'.

I wondered if the lady couldnt manage the toilet and preferred the commode.
For a moment.

The room filled with the smell of defecation (such a great word).

Hold on.
My partner is recovering from surgery as are the others, im presuming.
Molecules of shit floating round the room !
Just as important, the feelings of the people using the commodes.

I understand that for many patients toileting is an issue.
Pissing behind a screen ?
Not a problem.

When it comes to shitting, perhaps we should spend the time to get patients to the toilets.
It has to be better for hygiene and dignity.

Letting Go.

Sun, 10 May 2009 09:33:26 -0500

Letting go of the past. Such any easy thing to write, say or do ! Not. Our past defines us. Where we come from. Our actions in any given situation. All experiences which shape us, make us or break us. Letting go of the past ? More like embracing and integrating it. We are our past. Deal with it.

No Justice.

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 06:27:07 -0500

An article from Thursdays Sun, reports that 229 child abusers were let off with a caution, in a three year period, between 2004 and 2007. Ronald Boothby, a 57 year old, from Blackburn, had been convicted of assaulting a girl in 1980. Earlier, this year, Boothby was given a years prison sentence,by Burnley Crown Court,for assaulting a 12 year old girl, with learning difficulties. Suspended for two years !! Eric Cole, 71, from Bedford, had been jailed for 15 months, in 1998, for abusing a 12 year old girl. In 2006, he was arrested for molesting a 6 year old girl. Cole pleaded guilty at Oxford Crown Court, but Judge Julian Hall suspended his nine month jail term and put him on a Sex Offenders Programme. Judge Hall ordered Cole to pay �250 to his victim, so she could buy 'a nice new bicycle that might cheer her up'. For fucks sake !

Our Children Spied On At School.

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 17:29:11 -0500

'Daddy dropped an elephant on my head', An innocent saying from a small child, in school. Not any more. Comments like this are now recorded in the school's Child Protection Book, without your or your childs knowledge. Who has access to this information ?? Schools. Social Services. Local and County Councils. Police. Educating our children is no longer the priority it once was. Something is VERY wrong !!

Video ?

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 15:32:48 -0600

I have been thinking about my blogs this last period. My reasons for beginning and my uses for them now. The first blogs were pain filled and bilious. So my healing process began. I moved through my grief and anger and began to simply relate my story. Was it ever my intention to embarrass ? Oh yes. (Most of those posts/blogs I have now deleted) I am guilty, also, of shaming people and organisations. (Easily sorted - dont shit in front of me) Nowadays, I use them as a diary. Small pointers to help maintain my memory. I am now thinking VIDEO. Three years behind.